Waiting for the USF football game to start, doing some analytic reflecting.
In doing so, a question has been provoked. Has my disposition toward coworkers changed dramatically since my 19/20 year-old self?
Or was the environment of my 19/20 year-old self (the Army) just uniquely suited in such a way to force friendship?
Today, I spend almost no time outside work with my coworkers. This suggests nothing good or bad about them. Or me. Or our work. It's just the way it is.
I recall, though, when I was 19, I truly relished the time outside of duty hours spent with my Army buddies.
Sure, living in barracks, I was obligated to spend extra time with some of them. But that's not to what I am now referring.
The highlight of work back then was when Osama, Adrian, or Madrigal would suggest some event for the hours after work. Now, I sort of cringe at the thought of post-work activities; as if they are obligations which should be avoided.
There is no one I know presently that I aspire to hang out with. That wasn't always the case. In the Army, there was Phil, Dalton, and their gang. The cool crew, I guess. And when invited to share time, I genuinely felt privileged for the honor of being asked.
So, have I changed? Am I less personable? Less interested in my peers? Surely, my co-workers now are equally as interesting as those I shared time with in the Army.
Or was there something about the Army that compelled friendship, which is absent at my current place of employment?