Reluctance

Some context: Reader “ClearBlueWater3” responded to yesterday’s entry with a suggestion for coping with anxiety that I found thought provoking.  As the subject is relevant to similar discussions held at different venues, I’ve expanded my own reply into a full post of its own.

First, ClearBlueWater3, thank you for the comment and your continued concern for my condition, whatever it may be. 

While I cannot speak to whether I’d respond positively to the treatment you recommend, Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, I can explain why I have difficulty approaching any form of therapy.

My comfort is multitudes greater when writing than when expressing myself verbally.  While I have little hesitation to etch out my issues via keyboard, I find it difficult to impossible to talk about the same.

In a face-to-face situation, I’d be likely to describe my condition with the same nonchalance that I offer most situations in life. 

I have made contact with several possible mental health providers.  All by email.  When they have called, all but one time I have been apprehensive to the point of not answering. 

All of this, ClearBlueWater3, is why I deeply appreciate your continued participation with this blog.  I am hoping that you may be able to provide a reference to a provider that may offer the sort of care that I seek. 

I feel like a beggar wishing also to be a chooser.  But, to genuinely grasp my present state, I’d particularly desire of a physician a willingness to read the relevant entries I have provided here, and other writings that I have kept closer to the vest. 

Again, ClearBlueWater3, I sincerely appreciate your assistance.  Would you please provide recommendations along the lines described above?

Thank you.